Sweetly Broken

I felt challenged.  Urged.  Pushed by God to do this.  To start my year off with Jesus as my focus.  So much of my life is centered around me.  My own little world.  My focus has been on other areas of my life instead of where it should be, centered on God.

A little over two weeks ago, our pastor at church encouraged us to be part of Awakening.  21 days of fasting, prayer and personal devotion.  17 days have passed.  17 days that have been inspiring.  And difficult.  Beautiful.  Testing.  Amazing.  A mix of feelings all rolled into one.

And it is changing me.  Changing me from the person I once was into the person I want to be.  The person God wants me to be.   Watching the process unfold and seeing how God is working in my life and in the lives of the people around me is something I don’t think I can put into words.  I’ll just say that for the first time, in a long time, my heart is full.  I’ve cast aside my doubts, worries and troubles and put all my trust in God.  For me, relinquishing control is one of the hardest things to do.  These 17 days have reminded me that I am not in command.  God is.  When he closes a door, there’s a reason.  When he opens one, there is a reason.  My doubt is not trusting in him.  I don’t ever want to say no to what God is leading me to do.

I’m posting this blog because I want to remember.  Remember exactly how I am feeling today.  I’m at a point in my life where I don’t just want to live.  I want to live with a purpose.  Live a life that is Sweetly Broken.